*THE WORLD AROUND ME*

.something has caused everyone around me to change.
.no longer to tell me the truth, share their secrets, their fears or even their joys.
.i am no longer able to possess the ability and qualities of my personality, i use to have.
.every time i turn around there is a door slammed in my face. a phone line disconnected and a heart left broken.

at times i worry that the world around me has changed
i feel lke the whole world is movin in full speed,
an im, stuck, in neutral.

when i turn to my left,
when i turn to my right
when i turn around
i notice that i am the only one there

when i look in the mirror
when i stand on the train,
sittin in a traffic light
gettin a ticket,
i am alone

not one to call it suffering
not one to call it pain,
i noticed the whole world around me has changed.
maybe because i changed an i shut the world out.

. ive blamed the world for my mistakes.
. ive blamed my dad for my inability to find a descent guy to love.
. ive blamed my mom for lettin me get what i want.
. ive blamed my brother for walkin out on me.

ive blamed everyone for the change in me.
ive caused everyone around me to change.
not realizing that i am the one, that has caused the world around me change.
change is something i am not fond of. change is something i do not accept.
but change is something i need to do, before i loose everyone i love.

.[the chain i rock on my jeans is for my 19 year old cuzin thats locked up].
keep ya head up, you know ya fam loves you!