&& sometimes you just break...

today, I finally had a meltdown. I knew it was coming in one way or another, but what I didn't know is that it would've happened the way it did. My school did some dickhead shit to me, which causes me to re-question graduation on May 15th. (even if shit pans out, I honestly don't see myself walking since I'm highly disgusted with the shit they recently put me through).

So outside of the normal yearbook, which has been stressing me out to the point where I not sure if I'm coming or going, to my internship, which I find myself calling out once a week, to my job, which is the only thing that is keeping me sane for the most part, I finally let my emotions on the inside, boil over to the emotions on the outside.

I feel like I'm playing catch up for all of my classes. (4 three hour classes and 1 chem retake class) and more than ever I feel like im losing a grip on more than reality.

My mom believes that since I haven't been going to the gym (lol) lately, that I haven't been able to think clearly and figure out my game plan. Who knows, maybe tonight I'll get some miles in....

..the shit that seniors in college go through is like a single mother with 4 kids with 2 jobs goes through. I know to you it might not be a real comparison, but with all of these classes, from photography (still haven't developed my films), yearbook (my team casually forgetting meetings and deadlines) to my internship (the commute alone is time consuming) to my 9-5 on the weekends (who has time to party) to paying bills on time (smh i don't know how i do it, but it gets done) and countless other things i rather not mention is like having kids for me...

&& relationships? that's another blog for a different day...

in two weeks i'll be vanishing off to my moms crib, so deep in jersey i have to mapquest it lol. im not charging my phone, and im not bringing my apple. so im not connecting to anything outside my moms crib...thats going to be my vacation.

Hope everyone reading this works through their situations as well. and enjoys the winter in march (lol)

xoxo
Vintage