real quick

its 2:10am and my apple is going to die in a few moments. i came on the blog to prove that old love never dies. i was in a 4 year relationship that well never made it to the 5 year anniversary that was actually supposed to be last month around the 20something... but that doesn't matter. my 4 year relationship was amazing unfortunately at the time i was young minded and i didnt understand the magnitude of our relationship nor the bond that we shared. im currently single dabbling in a dude here and a dude there *frankly my dear no sexual activity but straight friendship status* but anyway, no matter what i do i cant take my mind off of my first love. our conversations use to be real quick, always ended in an arguement on why we broke up *and to be honest lord knows why we broke up* all i know is that my lying took over me, but i could never figure out which lie was the one that solidified the fact that i needed to be single and work on my lying...and change it to being honest. i think the lies weren't to cover up anything..i just figured i rather say it to your face than over the phone or in a text. so i guess that was my fault but anyway the point is that my ex told me he was in another relationship and he couldn't get serious with her because i was holding him back, because i was the one for him. its hard to handle the fact that im single and my ex has moved on, even if he doesn't consider it moving on...i do. apart of me, a huge part wishes that we could get back together work it out and move on with our lives like we planned, and the other part of me is saying move on live life breathe. but in due time we will see what god has in store for us. i just think people should be in the relationship for the long haul. be honest, be true to yourself, give yourself without loosing yourself. and Brooklyn *i wont shout out the government* no matter what i will always love you, i will always be here for you,
my away message for you

so torn..
so empty without you...
when it comes down to it
you are my everything
you will always be
even if you are with
someone else